I retain a core of stagnation, if you will. There is a center - my center, that I can find comfort in no matter what. Through grief, self sabotage, heartbreak and identity evolution, I chose to believe that I remain. It may be due to my lack of faith, there is a definite lack, it may be due to fear. Fear of change and of the unknown. A fear of what could possibly go wrong and what could possibly hurt. The unknown internal being that I could become after allowing particular life altering experiences to drift through and misshape me - for better, or worse.
I am afraid of who I might become and not recognizing myself.
My core.
I will be different.
Seeing alterations.
Living alternate endings.
I choose to stay in time for the sake of myself.
Safety.
Surprise.
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