Always pattern

I wish that to be me - That beak of rugged edged cliff yearning out towards the oceanistic mass.
Tonight, the chill I felt was undue to the choreographed ice.
it was the absence; you.

Believe I discovered trademark and easy inconsistency, simultaneously.

Perhaps and I will hide even not so

I opened a bag of typical, unassuming items.
They, waiting to be kindled in the least obnoxious manner.
A trio of quintessential memories stared me in the eyes, which could not deny them.

I sure do miss the coast.

±

Either
1 or 2
yes or no
right or wrong
do or don't
move or still
love or no love


I did it because it was the last of my two options.

Prick the scapegoat with irrational points

Return to expression; edit - as if contributing factors were solely mistakes.

I want to change the way I felt then, with what I have learned and come to feel now.

Continue to edit, quietly learning how to scrape away with friction and pink rubber, questions spoken in the language that is rhetoric.

I learn how to be thought, assumed, and in a skeptical unconvinced manner, un-learned.

Differences )))))))

12.03.09

Dec 3rd I saw Freddy Ruppert's solo Former Ghosts performance in San Francisco.
I can hardly influence the converging of words, to emphasize how affected I was by the intensity and expansive intimacy which his emotion and music storms outward.

I chose to not taking any photos during this set.

Doctor

Why am I, who?

Who am I, why?

I really am not.
Though, through your eyes, I have identity.
Have
Have
Have

So, perhaps I am not.

Is it always so easy?








I ...













It is with great difficulty.

Shrouded Abyss

The sharp rocks and cold gravel beneath my feet in this alleyway merely shielded by a thin pair of black tights reminded me that I feel the soft pain because I am alive.

Still Light

The doctor came in the morning
She held my hand
Asks "Was it worth it? Could it be worse than this?"
Please recall
Give me a hint
Anything will do
If this was the last time now you should tell us what to do

I was afraid I guess
Now I can't think no more
I was so concentrated
On keeping things together
I've learned to focus on
I didn't want to disappoint
Now where is everybody
Is it still light outside?

-The Knife